superdrag + shoegaze = bliss
I’ve been thinking a lot about how the brief window in which I am not responsible for a very tiny human being is getting smaller by the day. Since I have a comparative abundance of free time, I’ve decided to be more wise about how I use it. Here’s what I’m working on between now and December:
- Eating healthier, getting into better habits before I have to set an example
- Go running three times a week, don’t let a busy schedule be an excuse – it’s only going to get harder to find the time, so get in the habit now
- Take the time to read more – there is no shortage of books on the waiting list and it’s so much better than reading whatever dumb article is on your phone screen at any given moment
- Continue to be thoughtful about what your future tiny human being will actually need and not use this as an excuse to spend money
- Be present and enjoy the end of this phase and the excitement of starting another
- Do a few stupid things, just to get it out of your system
last night we watched “dancer in the dark”, the first (and only?) feature film starring bjork.
i’ve seen it a whole bunch of times, but recently lauren and i had been on vacation at the von trapp family lodge (yes, the family from “the sound of music”) in vermont. i mentioned to lauren that the musical played a central role in the film and told her we should watch it together.
i THOUGHT i had pre-warned her that this was quite literally the saddest movie i have ever seen in my life, but apparently i didn’t. unlike me, devourer of all sad/tragic media, lauren isn’t quite built for stuff like this. so, as could be expected, she wasn’t exactly a fan. i told her that i’d way rather be married to a happy person who likes all the happy stuff i like than a sad person who likes all my sad bastard shit.
my love of tragedy aside, i forgot how much i love this movie. whenever selma gets lost in one of her daydreams, i love how all the colors get warmer and the cameras change. as darkness descends around her, the dreams and songs take on such a magical quality.
ugh and the ending. i can’t possibly write about it here for fear of spoiling it for anyone, but it’s one of the most haunting songs i’ve ever heard.
if you like musicals, enjoy the saddest movies, or like bjork – and haven’t yet seen it, you’ve been sleeping on this movie for approximately fourteen years. get on it!
So we found out last week that we’re having a daughter.
I have about a million thoughts about this topic. All of them somewhat hard to articulate and more than a little overwhelming.
I have so many stories I want to tell her, things to show her, songs I can’t wait for her to hear, books I want to read with her. And of course, I know she’ll have so much to teach me. I’m not at all ready, but … I’m ready.
"Queen of Pentacles" by Teagan White